Something to think about

I was saying in an earlier entry that I wished sometimes I was never uprooted from, my hometown. For me now allergies play a huge role in that. In Flagstaff the only thing I ever had to worry about was cold and cabin fever. It's interesting how climate changes can affect one's lifestyles. Or comfort levels for that matter.

In Arizona, I never suffered from allergies, I was more active, and I had more of a social life. Since I didn't drive my only link to my own sanity is the local transit lines. Say what you will about city transit, it sure beats having to beg for rides everywhere just to get out of the house. For someone like me who has very poor eyesight, poor enough to where I am not legally allowed to drive, transit was my rope to sanity. My link to the outside world. I remember those days of calling my mom, dad, friends, and such telling them "Hey let's go here, there, wherever, I'll be on the next bus" That seems like days of old now.

The allergies here are awful, I wake up some mornings to have a headache so bad I can't even bear to open my eyes, my nose feels like I sniffed gasoline the night before, and my stomach feels like I drank an oil sludge. I never woke up in Flagstaff that way, Now I would be grateful to wake up to use a cold toilet seat, and waling across a cold floor. Anything would beat the more than once a week migraines.

I am gearing up to go back to Flagstaff this summer. I haven't been more excited to go back home in this long. I can't wait to see the mountains, hang out at my old hangouts, make a photo and video doc of where I lived when I was younger, and spend time with my mom, dad and sister. If only for two weeks, I will live those two weeks up to the fullest. I won't be going back for a while after that.

I was one of those people who said, "I hate this place I wish I could move and never come back" but that town has called my name, even a week after I moved here to Florida. I never realized what I really had there, a family, a job, a band, a comfortable place to live, reliable internet, no allergies, transit, ...gosh seems the possibilities were endless there, and I was too hasty to leave.

It all comes down to this, even if I did leave my home, I will always have a home with my wonderful husband and daughter, so all the migraines in the world are worth it to be with them.